Friday, October 15, 2010

State Of Mind

Okay, I've been mildly depressed lately. It's coming up on almost 2 years now being unemployed. Sure, I spend my days at the archery shop, learning how to fix and tune compound bows, but I don't get paid for it.; I'm an apprentice. My real career was in architecture - drafting and designing, basically. We have a lot of "the boys" come into the shop who are in the construction industry and they tell me that they're hurting as well. Construction and Architecture go hand-in-hand, and if they don't have work, we don't have work, and vice versa. At the shop, I'm actually actively looking for a job or a lead for a job. If anyone can help me, it's the contractors who know people. They tell me that there's just no work out there.

There are Interiors jobs in New York City, but all they are looking to hire are people fresh out of school who'll work for the experience alone - meaning "no pay" internships, or people with far less experience than I have, and pay them peanuts. I can't afford to live on peanuts, especially if it means a one-and-a-half hour commute each way, at the cost of $400 a month in transit fees. That's $400 a month that I don't need to hand over, especially if my taxes are going to skyrocket to 39%, on top of a huge pay cut. I also don't want to be putting in 60 hours a week for shitty pay. Twelve years ago, I suffered a nervous breakdown, which led to heart problems later on in my life. The nervous breakdown came after 5 years of working 70-hour weeks for an employer who didn't appreciate the time and effort I put into getting construction documents issued on time. The heart problems came about 7 years later in the form of Supraventricular Tachycardia, or SVTs for short. The high stress environment that I was immersed in caused a pathway in my heart to go nuts. After the ablation, I had to take it easy, even though I was still doing the occasional all-nighter at my previous job, but it was okay, because my then boss would compensate me by giving me off the next day, paid.

So, back to my depression. My unemployment insurance benefits are slated to run out by mid-November and I don't know if it's going to be extended. The country's in real bad shape and I don't know how it will ever recover from this administration's free-for-all massive spending on a galactic scale, especially when most of our industry has gone overseas. On top of that, this administration seems hell-bent on destroying the fabric of our hard-working society, in order to bring everyone down to the "slacker" level. It seems to me that mediocrity is the standard by which this generation, and future generations, will be measured.

Sometimes, the air about this country feels like a perfect storm is brewing and it's bringing with it an ill wind. But the tides may change after November 2nd and everything will be put right again. I may be depressed, but I still have hope.

In the meantime, I'm still looking for a job in either architecture or archery. If anyone has any leads, please send them my way. I'm willing to relocate. I've got to get of of this godforsaken state anyway.


  1. Move to Texas, we will welcome you!

  2. my old home twon there are a few jobs at Pro2Serve. They design buildings for Gov't, and some for large private business. you can try them at: best of luck, it took me over a year to find a job.

  3. Email me. jennifer (at) injennifershead (dot) com
    No promises, but I will see what I can do. It seems we always need someone in construction since we open new stores every month. I will do everything I can to get you in touch with the right people. The company I work for is even trying to increase their foot print your direction.

  4. Also, the local range is greatly expanding their bow range and selection. We have contacts there as well.

  5. Sorry to hear about your situation and I wish I could offer you more than encouragement. I'm in the same boat as you. I was a senior associate on track for junior partner in my former architectural firm up until a year and a half ago when the axe finally fell. Construction (and consequently, architecture) are dead out here in Commiefornia.
    About a year ago, I gave up looking for employment and decided to just go it alone. I contacted anyone and everyone, and after a while, one lead or contact lead to a small remodel job, tenant improvement or even a contract job doing drafting work for a manufacturing firm. I expanded my searches and marketing beyond traditional architecture projects where I even do contract work with a patent attorney churning out technical drawings for patent applications and creating assembly illustrations for a company that builds custom automotive parts for off-road vehicles.
    So far I'm doing okay, there are some days/weeks where I've got nothing - but these are the times when I keep looking for more work. I'm certainly not making as much as before but it's enough to pay the bills.
    I guess one positive about my situation is that I've had more time to go shooting (albeit shooting more .22LR only 'cause it's cheaper) and my skills have gotten better--especially when trying making each round count! Plus it helps relieve some stress.
    Keep the faith, my friend, and God bless.

  6. Sorry to have missed this post - hope things are looking up for you now ... sending {{hugs}}


Welcome to my soapbox. Remember, you are a guest here. Enjoy my random ramblings, or not; just don't be a tool...